wave-

and back I am at the minimum point of the sinusoid.
it's not something I can help, and neither is it something that I want to keep experiencing every few days.

the past few days have been nice, catching up and gathering with family before I leave, hugging and playing with my two beloved nephews and all; I thank God for these people in my life.

but it gets more and more tiring as I try to function normally while oscillating like that on a daily basis. leaving in 3 days but as the days go by the apprehension and helplessness gets a little more overwhelming. I really need to try to clear my head.