ranting-

ok fine i'm useless, i hope you're happy with that.

i didn't take my damn german o'levels because i'm hum, i know i won't pass. i didn't bloody take grade 7 practical because im hum, i know i won't pass. i can't bloody pass my damn mathematics despite studying almost only mathematics, i suck. happy?

you think i bloody can't complete anything i do, you think its damn encouraging to come home with some shit result on my test paper isit? you think it feels great to fail or something? i tell you it doesn't feel great, not at all. i feel like a bloody useless bum whenever i fail.

i don't waste time by the com. at least my friends are there for me when i need them.
i don't wate time bowling and playing flight sim. why can't i have my own damn passion and aspiration. this sounds bloody cliched but at least they provide me with avenues to vent my anger and disappointment. i don't do things for nothing.

perhaps i shouldn't even try to reach out of my limits, where i am now. would your expectations have been lower if i were somewhere else. would it be lower if i didn't even try to outperform my born limits in the first place.


look people, i'm sorry for all these ranting, i just really needed to get them off my chest and this seemed the only avenue for me to rant without bothering anyone.

backk home-

backk from thailand 2 days ago (8th december i mean, since its past midnight now) around 11+, close to midnight. only had time to update now as i've been sorting out my luggage and photos.

went to bangkok, kanchanaburi, ayutthaya, chiangmai, chiangrai, and donesao (laos p.d.r.) to buy souvenirs.

bought a fair bit of stuff backk, and took more than a fair bit of photos. on the whole it was a rather enjoyable trip, quite a different experience from my previous trip there. happened to be the thai King's 81st birthday the day i was in chiangrai / maesai. there was a really big street celebration sort of thing. i was/am still really impressed by their loyalty and respect to the King.

i'm still sorting out my photos and stuff, will upload when its organised.

2 random pics taken from my many pics-


have you found the special one passing by-
above: a random shot from suvarnabhumi international


are you daunted by life's long trackk-
above: the death railwayy

some personality thing-

i koped this from anni's blog-

japan airlines flight 719-

whees, flew narita to singapore on flight sim yesterdayys. block time 7 hours 40 mins on the japan airlines boeing 747-412 =)

some pics of my flight! click to enlarge-


above: japan airlines flight 719 lining up narita runway 34L awaiting departure. company hangar in the background-


above: flight 719 on the PAPAS8 departure, APPLE transition-


above: close up shot of the japan airlines 747-412 in new colours-


above: my workstation for the 7 hours 40 mins flight-


above: flight 719 touching down runway 20R, after coming in from LAVAX1B arrival, TOMAN transition. red words in the background is singapore airlines flight 637, also from narita, on a parallel approach-

liverpool power-

some interesting poster i found on the net. thought i'll share-

next up: goal highlights from liverpool's 8-0 thrashing of besiktas =)

classic videos-

some classic videos taken this year =)

september break-

im back to update - again. september break isn't really a break. its just there to let you stay at home and go berserk. i think i can study better in school, but thanks to some stupid sore throat which led to some stupid mild fever i feel too lethargic to go to school.

went to jurong point to meet zhikai for lunch + buy things + do chem tutorial yesterday. spent almost an hour plus walking around because i couldn't decide what to buy. but yeah, thanks for going to buy my stuff with me zhikai. after that went zhikai's house to do chem tutorial and played his ps2 before i came home.

nothing much on today. tried to study, not very productive. guess tomorrow's chemistry lesson would be more productive.

thats about all i have to update - i think.





p.s. happy birthday to you.

nice song + lyrics-

靠近一点点 - Lara
专辑: 恶作剧之吻 电视原声带

默默在你的身后 守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我会努力让你感动

在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执著
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑 或点头 全接受

能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别再紧紧关在 只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接

能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道 我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢 笑着和你说再见

school-

guess what, i did some maths in school again! these 2 afternoons quite productive, i've finished tutorial 9a and some questions from tutorial 9b already. i hope my determination to try to study will continue-

had physics mock spa today, after which we were handed a survey form asking about how we found the subject, the pace of teaching and how we found the tutor. err okay la. actually i think he's really okay. i mean, you can really see the amount of effort he puts in to teach us and try to explain things to us. its just that sometimes we really cannot understand.

stupid rain today made the field become a pool of mud, can't even play soccer. so we resorted to playing soccer at the space beside class bench again. poor mishh, hit by zhihong's missed shot which missed my head narrowly too.

came home rather late today, considering i had nothing on after school except doing tutorials. left school at about 6.30 plus. and yeah, saw adel yusi corrine and yuhuan at bukit batok.

hmm this post sounds more like a narrative than anything else huh. not bad, good practice for GP. okay okay that was crap-

music + studying-

yayness. i'm back to update again!

1. added a song! like this song alot alot. and the lyrics are great. theres this other song named 遇到 i wanted to add too (p.s. its 遇到 not 遇见), but chose this song instead.

2. i did homework in school today! oh my, its like ben chan doing homework, miracles do happen yeah?

3. i've resolved to study more everyday. may not be intense mugging, but at least an attempt to study.

yup. that's about it. i think shall update more often bah.

p.s. ain't the song nice?

881!

watched 881 today! I must say it is a really nice local production and its really funny at times, especially the animations for the divine powers. although the ending is really sad but I think this movie is really worth watching la (ehh do I get incentive for advertising lol)

qi yu wu is chao funny with the chicky la, especially the squeezing the chicken for sound effects part. very creative and funny haha. but throughout the show I had the thought that a miracle was going to happen and no one would die la, but apparently I was wrong.

some people were like sniffing and crying in the cinema too. ya la the ending was sad but erm really sad until they cry until like that meh? oh anyway the hokkien songs were really classic but nice la.


ok, back to normal. its been a super long while since i last updated. i think i should force myself to blog regularly la. tomorrow got 2 hours chemistry tutorial, thats so going to kill us man. oh wells.

backk-

I realised its been almost 2 weeks since I last updated - been feeling quite lazy to write lately.

nothing much worth mentioning here - except some interesting topic the bowling team were talking about this morning. chongchen said why not the whole team buy the same ball - he wanted nvs - it'll look very sehh with the same team ball (LOL). but of course we were only dreaming - one new nvs costs $350, and by simple calculations if 7 of us were to buy the same ball it would cost 7 x $350 = $2450. whoa. what a dream. haha.

played lots of fifa recently. and yes attempted to do maths homework. I must say spending time in school is more constructive than spending time at home. so I should spend more time in school. anyway, tmr's bowling training again! yayness.

yup. nothing much to write, going off -

P.S. suwen bend that straw and blow your own nose pls. :P

back to school after blocks-

youth day over - back to school.

physics lecture was an amazing 90 minutes. going through 20 (yes twenty) MCQs in 90 minutes made us experience the worst emotions you can ever experience on earth. it was really a YES MY TIKAM (means anyhow choose) WAS CORRECT, or DIE ITS WRONG AGAIN. hahas. sad, but its the truth. (of course this excludes imba people who manage to own for physics blocks)

nothing else that happened today was really worth mentioning - OH, yes - w.e.f july 1st 2007 GST has been raised from 5% to 7%-
and our canteen bottled drink price has been raised from $1.20 to $1.25 haha. i was really stunned when the uncle gave me 75 cents change for the drink I paid with a 2 dollar note.
(not that I mind the 5 cents lar, but this change in price is imba fast haha.)

played 3 matches of fifa07 with zhihong today, with my mind set to 'get thrashed' mode.
but won 1 lost 2 isn't a bad result afterall, I'm happy with the scorelines too.
(me) München 5 - 4 Nottingham Forest (zhihong) - he kindly agreed to use a english league one team for first match to give me advantage
(me) Republic of Korea 4 - 5 PR of China (zhihong) - last minute goal by defender from far range, I thought it was quite lucky but zhihong deserved the win
(me) Germany 4 - 6 England (zhihong) - I was quite happy with this result, considering the gap was bigger at half time, 0-4 if I'm not mistaken

youth day-

an attempt to finish this post in the last 2 mins of the day-

today was really fun, going vivo with 67 people - with the intention of watching transformers. with only shit seats left when we got there, we decided to eat dinner instead.

after dinner went arcade with wilson, zhikai, xinhui, yongqiang, zhihong, caryn and xinyi. played afterburner with zhikai, it was really cool - except wilson said loads of people were looking at us play. then played daytona usa 2 with zhikai.

then we enjoyed cheap thrill at adidas shop @ vivocity, playing tabletop soccer. we were having loads of fun, until some small kid came and made lots of noise (while koping one row of my players) and the staff came to tell the boy he was damn noisy.

advice: for good class outings, go adidas shop @ vivocity for some cheap thrill.
second advice: DO NOT buy ice-blended drinks from kopitiam @ vivocity. (zhihong and I got scammed already)


and the sky is the only place that can provide you with all the peace and quietness you desire-

last day of june (before GST hike too)-

Australia grind out 3-0 friendly win over Singapore
Reuters
Updated: June 30, 2007, 10:23 AM ET

SINGAPORE, June 30 - Mark Viduka scored a second-half double and Harry Kewell also got on the scoresheet as Australia ground out a 3-0 win over Singapore in a friendly in the city state on Saturday.

Australia, using the game as a tune-up for the Asian Cup, started slowly and it was the hosts who came closest to scoring in the first half.

Australia goalkeeper Mark Schwarzer had to be sharp to stop Indra Sahdan in a one-on-one in the 38th minute and the Singapore striker came even closer five minutes later when his header crashed off the crossbar with Schwarzer beaten.

Australia stepped up the pace in the second half and it was not long before the Socceroos took the lead, with Newcastle forward Viduka heading home in the 50th minute.

Singapore pushed forward for an equaliser and Khairul Amri came close to scoring when his curling, left-foot shot came back off the post.

With Singapore leaving gaps at the back Australia made it 2-0 when substitute Kewell slotted home in the 76th minute.

The Liverpool winger then crossed for Viduka to head home his second in the closing minutes, wrapping up the scoring in the last game played at Singapore's National Stadium before it is torn down.

The Asian Cup, being hosted jointly by Indonesia, Vietnam, Thailand and Malaysia, starts next Saturday.

This story is from ESPN.com's automated news wire.

yes I know Singapore lost but undoubtedly Harry Kewell was simply outstanding tonight, scoring one and creating another. Kudos to the Liverpool midfielder (and Viduka too of course). Doesn't this just show how good Liverpool players are? :P haha.

anyway, went to bowl today! and with lots of luck and tyconess I won weimin in one game of bowling! not much use anyway, weimin and I were a team this morning when we vs chong chen and yinghao doubles.

monday's coming! what should I do on monday? perhaps i should just stay at home and slack-

blocks over-

BLOCK TESTS ARE OVER! WHEEEE-

lol. I'm like super happy blocks are over lah. yar I know I'm bound to screw physics and chemistry and stuff. but its over - and I have one week before I get screwed for my results :)

and YES blocks being over means:
1) more FLIGHT SIM
2) more BOWLING
3) going sentosa!

haha. yep. I'm so going to enjoy this coming weekend.

ANYWAY, I've been playing quite a bit of football manager 07 too haha. and i bought like 4 players in my first season at liverpool already! yeah, namely andoni iraola, paulo ferreira, adriano and freddy adu!

yar don't doubt the decision to buy adu haha, he's bound to be a world class player in football manager in a few years' time (game time lar).

Ok I shall end here. shall show off the Blue Angels F/A-18 Hornet I have in my FS2004 next time =)
or I should just post pictures of a flight in a 744 or A343-

block tests-

finally- 60% of the block tests over

completed subjects:
- H2 Economics
- H2 Physics
- H1 General Paper

coming up:
- H2 Mathematics (tomorrow)
- H2 Chemistry (thursday)

not to mention physics block test was so 'wonderful' I felt like leaving the moment I saw the paper. gosh.

some sesame street profile thing-

some quiz thingy that generates some comments about you based on your answers to some questions.

and lol, this is what they gave me-

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

blog moved-

phew- finally made an attempt to move my blog here.

previous blog at chanqiyu.com was discontinued because I didn't want to pay for renewing of the domain name. lols.

so more or less this will be what you see here until I have time to make it better -