moi-

first post from Tampere! Reached yesterday and spent the whole day doing administrative stuff like checking in, going to ikea and supermarket to get necessities, and setting up my room in general.

really tired but at least my room is nice and comfy now (: will be going to the bank later and city centre at night, apparently there's going to be fireworks at 10pm (not 12am I highly doubt anyone here is awake at 12am...)

cheers from Tampere-

cya-

nice last session of the year with the kids today. really hope the kids will stay together and continue to come every week. it hasn't always been easy with this class but I'm sure I'll miss them.

will probably miss working together with this bunch of ss colleagues too. pray that I will be able to 收拾我的心情 and come back half or one year later in better shape.

and yes, to you who are reading this, I'll really miss you, take care and see you soon!

nice timing-

just heard 那些年 on the radio again.

那午夜电影, 还记得吗?

一秒也好-

感觉犹如回到了四年前。对词曲的欣赏依旧，但此时的我对歌词有了更深一层的诠释与感受...

i missed this voice-

after so many years I still love her voice. don't really like the way the mv story ended but at least she's singing again. her songs have accompanied me during so many of my sleepless nights in the past, and I guess it will continue to do so. well, at least for tonight it will.

wave-

and back I am at the minimum point of the sinusoid.
it's not something I can help, and neither is it something that I want to keep experiencing every few days.

the past few days have been nice, catching up and gathering with family before I leave, hugging and playing with my two beloved nephews and all; I thank God for these people in my life.

but it gets more and more tiring as I try to function normally while oscillating like that on a daily basis. leaving in 3 days but as the days go by the apprehension and helplessness gets a little more overwhelming. I really need to try to clear my head.

ouch-

as painful as it gets the goodbye will always have to come.
goodbye, take care and all the best for whatever you might be doing in the next few months/near future.

ivan was right, when such things happen we feel like half of us just died/went hollow. and it takes a long time for the void to recover. I really don't know when and how this void would recover, but I'd much rather fill it with memories than with hatred.

I miss you and all the memories. but we belong to separate worlds after all, and you seem to be coping well and living happily. that's all that matters I guess.

again, take care and all the best to you.
jiayou to myself too; just keep walking on ben, no matter how hard it gets.

又来了-

我的心仍隐隐作痛，
回想起过去，一时泛了眼红。
人生只能向前走，
但如何向前  我真不知。

break time-

happened to randomly turn on my old iphone while taking a break from trying to study, and it made me tear and fucking hate myself.

thanks for all the fond memories, I really hope you're happier right now-

some line from 欧得洋's old song-

幸福车站  没有王子骑着白马;
只有  真心的傻瓜
在终点为你盖个家;
风雨都吹不垮。

爱到有了白发, ____。

无眠-

无眠 - 苏打绿
词：吴青峰
曲：史俊威

今夜的月光超载太重
照着我一夜哄不成梦
每根头发都失眠

天空他究竟在思念谁
是不是都和我一样
挥不去昨日甜美的细节
才让今天又沦陷

你现在想着谁有 没有和我相同的感觉
固执等着谁却惊觉已无法倒退
曾经想一起飞 在自己心中盖了座花园
把你的一切都种在这个地点
却像鱼守在里面

今夜的月光超载太重
照着我一夜哄不成梦
每根头发都失眠

天空他究竟在思念谁
是不是都和我一样
挥不去昨日甜美的细节
才让今天又沦陷

你现在想着谁有 没有和我相同的感觉
固执等着谁却惊觉已无法倒退
曾经想一起飞 在自己心中盖了座花园
把你的一切都种在这个地点
却像鱼守在里面

不管要多少时间多少眼泪多少落空来等待
不管你是不是会回来
其实我也不明白 为什么如此傻傻地期盼
你是我仅有的爱

你现在想着谁有 没有和我相同的感觉
固执等着谁却惊觉已无法倒退
曾经想一起飞 在自己心中盖了座花园
把你的一切都种在这个地点
像条鱼守在里面
守着幻影葬在里面

瞬间的感触-

人生有好多事
何时发生, 为何发生
我们都不了解。
也许也永远不会了解。

唯须相信一切的发生
都是为了更好的未来。
一些人事物虽已不再,
但没了这些我的生活反倒不错。

唯独你,
我仍然牵挂。
即使是以普通的身份。

盼你珍重, 开心。
期望来日还有与你
开心暢谈的机会。

seriously-

当我还会关心你的时候, 不要那么guailan, 因为总有一天这会变的。 我关心你, 因为我还在乎你。不要以你机车的态度回应我仅有的关心。 perhaps one day I wouldn't even give a flying fuck anymore.