on the year that passed-

last hour of 2011, decided to look back and think about stuff that happened this year-

-worked in bcc for a few months at the start of the year, where i met nice friends/colleagues.
-went for a few short trips out of singapore (sabah, penang-kl-malacca, taiwan), enjoyed myself while i could before school started. taiwan was great, i swear i will return sometime soon. but most memorable probably backpacking/roaming around with xinhui and ivan in malaysia, miss you guys lots.
-convinced myself to go for one orientation camp and met nice coursemates for whom i am really thankful for. thanks for making life in MSE more vibrant. (:

and...

most importantly:
for having encountered amazing person/events that made me feel truly blessed and thankful for. though sometimes i really feel undeserving, but thank you so so much for everything.(:
zu dir: Vielen Dank für Alles. 9-12-4. Immer.




finally, thank you Father for your faithfulness the past year. small hiccups here and there throughout the year but You have brought me through. will strive to walk closer to You in the coming year. grant me strength and faith Lord (:

这就是我-

我就是个如此小气的人.
有些事, 或许我永远也不会/无法大方地接受/处理.
这, 就是我.

old ageing me-

haven't slept a wink at all last night, whole body sore. wanted to go out for a walk to take a breather but looks like my body probably can't take it.

results have been so-so (to most nus students), but pretty decent for a first semester by my own standards i guess. did better than expected for physics, but a wee bit disappointed i didn't get my A- for economics. but still, thank you Lord for your faithfulness.

semester 1 break has seriously been a rollercoaster ride for me. extreme highs, to extreme lows. perhaps a sign of ageing, but i really think i can't really cope with such extreme situations/emotions.


zu dir: don't let your faith in me die. i will prove to you one day that it's all worth it. 9-12-4.

唱到心坎里-

那些年 - 胡夏
作曲：木村充利
填词：九把刀

又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终于来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片
无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后　故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合　你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱着她

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你　拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你
紧紧抱着你

ramblings-

you seriously still had no idea what i was talking about. i mean, this is really a 'principle' kind of thing already no? if i had agreed to anything i will never ever make last minute plans that will compromise/clash with my initial plan/agreement/promise. guess it really also shows how much/little the initial plan mattered. i was really willing to spend time / looking forward to the initial plan, this last minute thing just made me blow things out of proportion, but it was only because i really 看重 the initial plan. maybe i wouldn't 看重 so much next time to avoid disappointment. ):

if you think i'm talking about you in this post, then you're mistaken. i'm not talking about you.

entropy-

on the bus home now, and somehow randomly felt like updating something here again for no reason. been feeling extremely bored, stressed, scared and worried for the past 1-2 weeks. only 15 days left and i can't really see how i'll be able to do decently for finals :/ never felt so worried over an exam before actually. guess its part of the effects of a two-year absence from school.

knee's been hurting quite a bit lately and i really hate the feeling. i don't want to keep complaining about it too but it's really been quite bad lately.

and i actually don't really know why i'm still updating this blog though. but i guess the day i really stop updating this blog will be the day that i ______. yupp.

-----
男人.海洋 - 周传雄

当我抱着你的时候
窗外风起黄叶飘落
以为是浪漫
原来只是 有心在飞走

不懂情人心里想的
爱就瞎了也迷路了
想摸索什么
摸到了你 手心的沉默

最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂

温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔

共鸣-

Listen, baby
Ain't no mountain high
Ain't no valley low
Ain't no river wide enough, baby
If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

Remember the day
I set you free
I told you
You could always count on me
From that day on I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me
Some way,some how

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
No wind, no rain
My love is alive
Way down in my heart
Although we are miles apart
If you ever need a helping hand
I'll be there on the double
As fast as I can

Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

mumbling-

men are the greatest liars;
especially when it comes to moods and feelings.

i'm actually still doing this-

randomly dropping by my own blog before i sleep and realised that this place is seriously full of cobwebs and almost rotting already so i decided to do a random post to preserve this memorable blog-

half of my first semester in uni has passed, so quickly that it feels weird and somewhat scary at the same time. well fun times and some (really) nice friends make my struggle to reactivate my defunct brain less of a pain too (:

birthday was two days ago, and seriously realised how much my birthdays in the next 3+ years are going to suck real bad just like it did this year since every year on my birthday i'll probably be spending it in examination halls doing midterm tests. D;

einstein test was really ridiculous, there was no way i will ever be able to finish 40 relativity and space/stars/blackhole questions in an hour. plus a few mistakes here and there, my result for this test is seriously not worth looking forward to.

spent almost the whole recess week just to prepare for the math test a few hours ago. really wasn't what i expected at all. (already know the results but) after the paper i really was pondering whether my one week could've been better spent salvaging my physics instead. the paper was totally unlike any of the past years' i've attempted. well results wise i can't and really will not complain, but i've really got to say this paper took my by surprise. totally.

3 more days, 2 more midterms tests. shall play all i can after friday and during the weekends before its time to pick up from the lag we're all experiencing due to midterms week. perhaps they really shouldn't have lectures / continue to chiong chapters during midterms week, it's really not hard to realise most people in the lecture are actually revising for some other paper they have that day.

off to sleep for now, not sure when i'll actually be back but, goodnight world-

two years-

it's been two years;

exactly two years since grandma passed away. its been the longest two years of my life, mainly because of ns, but the memory of grandma's passing is still fresh and deeply etched in my mind. it also happened to be the third day of my alevels two years ago. retrospectively, i still thank God for taking grandma back at such a trying period for me two years ago. for one, grandma was relieved of her pain; and for another, perhaps the hectic exam period also helped to lessen the grief. either ways, i've learnt to thank you Lord for the way you made it all. and of course (in a slightly more jovial mood), thank God for not screwing up my alevels :)

i miss you grandma.

worldflight 2010-

WorldFlight 2010: for a worthy cause :)

its the time of the year again for all aviation / flight simulation enthusiasts to do their part for charity! too bad can't support worldflight this year since i'm still in camp almost everyday + my joystick is faulty :/ i'll support again next year!

anyway! only SEVEN days left to freedom :D

my ord checklist:
[x] myORD quiz
[x] transcript
[x] ord medical and dental ffi booking
[x] medical ffi
[x] dental ffi
[x] ord clearance form (less the last day portions) signed
[ ] ord lo!

ord mood-

18 days left-

ultra long weekends ftw :) i've got an ultra long weekend this week, starting from today hehe. will only return to camp on monday morning, ain't that nice :D

ANYWAY YANTIAN I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN muahahahah.

REVELATION OF THE YEAR
(i hope somebody sees this)
YANTIAN IS LEARNING BALLROOM DANCING
YANTIAN IS LEARNING BALLROOM DANCING
YANTIAN IS LEARNING BALLROOM DANCING
YANTIAN IS LEARNING BALLROOM DANCING hahahahah.
i still can't stop laughing whenever i imagine sleepyhead dancing hahahah. sorry la yt :/ dont angry okayy lol.

okayy shall stop disturbing yantian (sniggers) :P

anyway, one more step closer to ord! :D
my ord checklist:
[x] myORD quiz
[x] transcript
[x] ord medical and dental ffi booking
[x] medical ffi
[x] dental ffi
[ ] ord clearance form (less the last day portions) signed
[ ] ord lo!

这就是爱吗-

22 days left-

the benefit of driving quite alot recently: i listen to 93.3 alot nowadays, and in the process i hear alot of nicee songs (: and! having a sharp ear for songs with nice/meaningful lyrics, i can often catch the lyrics the very first time i hear the songs :D

ahah another nice song by 容祖儿 (:

这就是爱吗
容祖儿

你确定这就是爱吗
真的爱我吗
手牵着手漫步斜阳 就当作浪漫

两个人眺望远方
以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望 却已泪湿了眼眶

当夕阳变成星光 当爱情换了方向 
你一如过往 对爱太紧张 
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨 
谁给我力量

我不怕你 爱不爱我
只害怕你 以为爱我
抓紧我 不算拥有
你总学不会放手

我不怕你 不懂爱我
只怕你 把习惯 当作爱
你猜不透 我要什么

喔 你猜不透 我要什么

der mannschaft-

FOOTBALL - Bundesliga
14/10/10 - 22:57

Germans want Ballack to quit national team
A narrow majority of German football fans want captain Michael Ballack to quit the national team, according to a survey.

The SID news agency asked the Dortmund Polling Institute to interview fans and found that 55.1 per cent want the Bayer Leverkusen midfielder, 33, to step aside.

This would allow Philipp Lahm to keep the armband he wore during the World Cup, and would pave the way for the new generation of young players who impressed in the injured Ballack’s absence.

However, the former Chelsea star is still viewed as one of the top German players, after he polled joint-second with Miroslav Klose in another survey among the sample of fans.

The veteran duo were viewed as Germany's top player by 11.7 per cent of respondents, behind only Klose's Bayern Munich team-mate Bastien Schweinsteiger (20.8 per cent).

Real Madrid playmaker Mesut Ozil was the biggest jumper in the rankings, more than doubling his previous level of popularity by polling fifth, with 8.4 per cent.



hahahah adel i bet you'll be damn happy after you read this (:

笨的可以-

笨的可以
郭采洁

听你开心说着 你的事情
我有一种莫名 心跳反应
夜深人静时候 突然想到你
没有原因 没有逻辑 谁能说明

总以为 我们是 地球的南北两极
直到 分开旅行 我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听

是我笨的可以 我们早就相遇
我说服我自己 这一切只是友情
是你让我相信 两颗心没有距离
我才发现 原来我爱着你

总是爱捉弄我 寻我开心
从来没有想过 会喜欢你
也许爱情就是 没什么道理
缘分来临 措手不及谁看得清

总以为 我们是 地球的南北两极
直到分开旅行 我才明白
有好多的话 想说给你听

是我笨的可以 我们早就相遇
我说服我自己 这一切只是友情
是你让我相信 两颗心没有距离
我才发现 原来我爱着你

是我笨的可以 没看穿你的心
还以为这只是 爱情无聊的恶作剧
是我笨的可以 我终于面对自己
勇敢证明 我是真的爱你 我是真的爱你

ultra long day-

24 days left-

didn't have the energy to update last night because i was basically travelling from one end of tuas naval base to the other yesterday. even on a bicycle it was damn tiring please. okayy maybe i'm just old now hahah.

going bowling today! (:


my ord checklist:
[x] myORD quiz
[x] transcript
[x] ord medical and dental ffi booking
[x] medical ffi
[ ] dental ffi
[ ] ord clearance form (less the last day portions) signed
[ ] ord lo!

freedom-

25 days and counting-

uhh as you can see the last ord update i posted was 5 months ago hahah. but anyway! freedom is coming real soooooooon, but this last one month feels like the longest month in my life, ever.

got to start planning for post-ord life already too, i've got 8 to 9 months before school starts, and if i really do relief teaching it'll only start in january :/ i really need a job before that (and just in case there's no vacancies for relief teachers)... recommendations anyone?

anyway for the next 25 days (at least) i will make it a point to update this blog everyday, even if it's just to countdown the days till ord (:


p.s. adel i bet you wouldn't even notice i updated my blog hahah.


my ord checklist:
[x] myORD quiz
[x] transcript
[x] ord medical and dental ffi booking
[ ] medical ffi
[ ] dental ffi
[ ] ord clearance form (less the last day portions) signed
[ ] ord lo!

my fifa10 online stats-

found this website to make a gamercard for my fifa10 online gameplay statistics on playstation network-


stay tuned, the gamercard should update as i play more multiplayer games :)

countdown: 6 months-

6 months left till i ord-

anw, shit i just realised my last post was in january 18 hahah thats almost 4 months ago. but nvm since i have time today i shall update a little.

school-
reapplied for uni this year and this is what i got:

(from nus)
You have been offered Materials Sci & Eng in academic year 2011 - 2012.
The details of the offer will be stated in the offer letter.
Your letter of offer was sent on 23-Apr-2010.
For acceptance of the NUS course that has been offered to you, please refer to the instructions enclosed in your offer package.

got the exact same offer from nus as well (yes i want to know why both years both schools offer me the same courses, mech eng last year and mse this year).
after not-so-much consideration i've decided to accept nus' offer and do mse at nus instead of ntu.

still thinking whether i will attempt to apply for ntu aerospace engin again next year, got abit sian of applying and hoping and applying and hoping already. i'll leave that till next year to decide i guess.

decisions decisions-

as march is drawing near, uni application period is about to start again. and yes i keep having the same thoughts recently - am i really going to study mechanical engineering?

as much as i want to study aerospace engineering (and yes i will try applying again), i doubt i'll get in and will probably fall back to the second choice. but after one year i am actually starting to question my decision of accepting the mech. engineering offer last year. im praying for a direction, Lord.

anw chinese new year is drawing near and since my family didn't celebrate chinese new year last year (because of grandma's passing) i finally went to buy new shoes to replace my puma shoes with almost-flat soles. guess what, i'm sticking to puma still hahah.

alright, shall update again another time, off to watch House M.D. now, i've been watching alot of House recently.