on the year that passed-

last hour of 2011, decided to look back and think about stuff that happened this year-

-worked in bcc for a few months at the start of the year, where i met nice friends/colleagues.
-went for a few short trips out of singapore (sabah, penang-kl-malacca, taiwan), enjoyed myself while i could before school started. taiwan was great, i swear i will return sometime soon. but most memorable probably backpacking/roaming around with xinhui and ivan in malaysia, miss you guys lots.
-convinced myself to go for one orientation camp and met nice coursemates for whom i am really thankful for. thanks for making life in MSE more vibrant. (:

and...

most importantly:
for having encountered amazing person/events that made me feel truly blessed and thankful for. though sometimes i really feel undeserving, but thank you so so much for everything.(:
zu dir: Vielen Dank für Alles. 9-12-4. Immer.




finally, thank you Father for your faithfulness the past year. small hiccups here and there throughout the year but You have brought me through. will strive to walk closer to You in the coming year. grant me strength and faith Lord (:

这就是我-

我就是个如此小气的人.
有些事, 或许我永远也不会/无法大方地接受/处理.
这, 就是我.

old ageing me-

haven't slept a wink at all last night, whole body sore. wanted to go out for a walk to take a breather but looks like my body probably can't take it.

results have been so-so (to most nus students), but pretty decent for a first semester by my own standards i guess. did better than expected for physics, but a wee bit disappointed i didn't get my A- for economics. but still, thank you Lord for your faithfulness.

semester 1 break has seriously been a rollercoaster ride for me. extreme highs, to extreme lows. perhaps a sign of ageing, but i really think i can't really cope with such extreme situations/emotions.


zu dir: don't let your faith in me die. i will prove to you one day that it's all worth it. 9-12-4.

唱到心坎里-

那些年 - 胡夏
作曲：木村充利
填词：九把刀

又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终于来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片
无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后　故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合　你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱着她

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你　拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你
紧紧抱着你

ramblings-

you seriously still had no idea what i was talking about. i mean, this is really a 'principle' kind of thing already no? if i had agreed to anything i will never ever make last minute plans that will compromise/clash with my initial plan/agreement/promise. guess it really also shows how much/little the initial plan mattered. i was really willing to spend time / looking forward to the initial plan, this last minute thing just made me blow things out of proportion, but it was only because i really 看重 the initial plan. maybe i wouldn't 看重 so much next time to avoid disappointment. ):

if you think i'm talking about you in this post, then you're mistaken. i'm not talking about you.

entropy-

on the bus home now, and somehow randomly felt like updating something here again for no reason. been feeling extremely bored, stressed, scared and worried for the past 1-2 weeks. only 15 days left and i can't really see how i'll be able to do decently for finals :/ never felt so worried over an exam before actually. guess its part of the effects of a two-year absence from school.

knee's been hurting quite a bit lately and i really hate the feeling. i don't want to keep complaining about it too but it's really been quite bad lately.

and i actually don't really know why i'm still updating this blog though. but i guess the day i really stop updating this blog will be the day that i ______. yupp.

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男人.海洋 - 周传雄

当我抱着你的时候
窗外风起黄叶飘落
以为是浪漫
原来只是 有心在飞走

不懂情人心里想的
爱就瞎了也迷路了
想摸索什么
摸到了你 手心的沉默

最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂

温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔

共鸣-

Listen, baby
Ain't no mountain high
Ain't no valley low
Ain't no river wide enough, baby
If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

Remember the day
I set you free
I told you
You could always count on me
From that day on I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me
Some way,some how

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
No wind, no rain
My love is alive
Way down in my heart
Although we are miles apart
If you ever need a helping hand
I'll be there on the double
As fast as I can

Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

mumbling-

men are the greatest liars;
especially when it comes to moods and feelings.

i'm actually still doing this-

randomly dropping by my own blog before i sleep and realised that this place is seriously full of cobwebs and almost rotting already so i decided to do a random post to preserve this memorable blog-

half of my first semester in uni has passed, so quickly that it feels weird and somewhat scary at the same time. well fun times and some (really) nice friends make my struggle to reactivate my defunct brain less of a pain too (:

birthday was two days ago, and seriously realised how much my birthdays in the next 3+ years are going to suck real bad just like it did this year since every year on my birthday i'll probably be spending it in examination halls doing midterm tests. D;

einstein test was really ridiculous, there was no way i will ever be able to finish 40 relativity and space/stars/blackhole questions in an hour. plus a few mistakes here and there, my result for this test is seriously not worth looking forward to.

spent almost the whole recess week just to prepare for the math test a few hours ago. really wasn't what i expected at all. (already know the results but) after the paper i really was pondering whether my one week could've been better spent salvaging my physics instead. the paper was totally unlike any of the past years' i've attempted. well results wise i can't and really will not complain, but i've really got to say this paper took my by surprise. totally.

3 more days, 2 more midterms tests. shall play all i can after friday and during the weekends before its time to pick up from the lag we're all experiencing due to midterms week. perhaps they really shouldn't have lectures / continue to chiong chapters during midterms week, it's really not hard to realise most people in the lecture are actually revising for some other paper they have that day.

off to sleep for now, not sure when i'll actually be back but, goodnight world-